Greasy John, I'm sorry to read about your leukemia. The news of your cancer saddened me. I do not know what to say.
It is late and yours is the last post I'm reading today. So perhaps this is a good place to start. I remember how friendly, encouraging, helpful and full of zest you were when you helped me navigate some of the different aspects of posting and such on this website. What a nice guy you are.
As for that disease, F*** Cancer. F*** it very large and very hard.
It is good to have you back Greasyjohn. Please be encouraged to know that we are pulling for you, and many warm thoughts and prayers are going your way.
Of course, we are all looking forward to the details of the, "And I fell in love." cliffhanger. Do tell.
Is the 16.67 a reference to boxcars where 2 and 12 pay only 2?
I actually started to tell the story of my love for this girl but I realized I couldn't do it justice in my then mood, but yes I would very much like to share this incredible story here someday. Let me just reveal that this is someone I've known since 2004. We had a relationship of sorts from 2006 until about 2012. It was never officially a relationship--we just got together every week or two for dinner and some affection. Well that all changed when I got leukemia. My relationship with her had fizzled out but this bad news brought us together again. She has been wonderful. When I left for the hospital my home was in disarray because of my poor state. In the weeks leading up to my hospital admission my home was not clean and my clothes were strewn about. She took it upon herself to clean my home to wash my clothes, to buy sheets for my bed to bring over equipment to raise my toilet seat to make it easier for me. She brought a chair for my shower so that I could sit and bath myself (her father and mother had lived to be 91 and 92 respectively and they used this equipment in their final months. Her mother was the last to pass away on December 7, 2013. It just so happens that I joined this forum the following day). She put food in my refrigerator and in the first week while I was home she brought me things from the store because I could not drive. She was the primary caregiver I depended on. (The hospital basically required that I have someone in that position before I could be released, otherwise I would have to have been admitted to a skilled nursing facility.) Then, instead of bringing the things I needed she would come over and we would go out and get them together.
One of the odd things about chemo after a diagnosis of leukemia is that in almost all of the patients their mouths have several or many canker sores. It makes swallowing painful and impossible. To eat in the hospital I took lidocaine. It is a gloppy--honey like medication that you would swirl around in your mouth and it deadened the mouth nerves. Then for a period of five minutes or so you could eat soft foods like ice cream, pudding and yogurt. But if you tried to eat bread it was impossible--at least in the beginning.
Anyway, I remember my first meal out with my love, Chris, which happened about 10 days after my arrival home. We went to In and Out. It was wonderful to be eating good simple food that reminded me of a normal life. And God how good it tasted--strawberry shake, the double double, fries and a Coke. I don't eat there very often--it's a little overpriced. But it felt good to have this little piece of Americana...
I wrote this missive to Chris about 10 days ago:
In the past six weeks you've shown me great kindness. You made several trips to my home to make it comfortable for my return. You went out of your way to do my laundry. You brought me things that would help in my recovery. You made sure that I had food for my return. I appreciate so much these things you've done for me. The sweetness and love you have shown me make it easy for me to love you. It has been wonderful hugging you and holding you near. I have looked forward to and enjoyed every day we've spent together. I feel blessed that you are in my life and look forward to the great times we will have together.
My current health issues have brought me some great difficulties and I am very appreciative of the understanding you have shown. Although I have had some difficulties this has been a beautiful and wonderful time spent with you. And this is all that is really important to me and I wanted you to know.
That's all I can say for now.
I really wanted my next post to express my appreciation for all the kind words and thoughts that have come my way, but your mention of my new love caught me and I allowed myself to be self-absorbed.
I'll need more details if you want anything such as the usual contradictory and dangerous advice that I spew.