Nothing to be embarrassed about.
Let's say you have a traditional job and your salary is 60K/year. Just for fun, I'm your boss, and you walk in and I say, "Hey, KewlJ, I appreciate you getting that big contract for us, so I have a nice little bonus for you."
The day is Friday, and I hand you an envelope and tell you not to open it until you get home. You get home, expecting maybe a few hundred, open the envelope and there's a check for $30,000.
After you change your pants, aren't you going to be glad you're off Saturday/Sunday to compose yourself after that?
Well, I don't think my pants needed changing but it might have been close, Mission. But the issue is that I pride myself in trying to keep my emotions in check. I try to concern myself less with the actual wins and losses and more with the EV. And the EV for that day was only a few dollars and for the days that followed when I didn't play....zero.
In fairness, this was the biggest single day win I had experienced up until that time by 3 times. It is still the biggest single day win, I have ever experienced. I think the emotion of such is something you just can't prepare for, but have to go though it. I would like to have another such win, just to see if I handle it better emotionally. :-)
This is what I'm saying, though, it's exactly like the huge bonus in a traditional job. Originally, there was no expectation, it's your job to get the huge contract, you got the huge contract, your expectation is now they probably won't arbitrarily decide to fire you. Okay, you go into work and your boss hands you an envelope saying it contains a, "Nice little bonus," now your EV is a few hundred because you know you have a bonus, then BOOM, 30k.
Listen, KewlJ, you're ice cold, nobody doubts it, but everyone has a dollar figure that causes them to thaw a little bit!
They're maybe late thirties, shuffle completes, they buy in IIRC for $500 at this $25/$3000 table. I stand between them (slightly behind) to watch for a while as it's unlikely I'll get a seat anywhere until someone gets tired of losing...
Third base BJ first hand, chips up. Another BJ, doubles up. Wins another few hands in a row and is betting purple already. A suit appears and watches casually. From time-to-time I'll comment "nice hit" as he pulls a 9 to his 12 and beats the dealer's twenty or "good double" as he wins a straightforward double-down. Several more BJs and wins in a row and he's got 3 orange out. Has not lost a hand.
Dealt 3-3 against dealer seven, looks at me and asks, "What would you do here?" as he gathered I know the game.
Dealt a seven, looks at me: "double"
He does. Wins both.
Soft 18 versus trey.
These "close" hands confirmed in my mind they're just weekend gamblers out for the night.
Now he has a very serious pile of chips, another suit appears, after a fill they watch intently. Another shoe, another fill, dealer change, doesn't lose a single hand. Now there are at least 3 or 4 suits behind the dealer. He has $87,000. Still table max of 3 pumpkins, good double but dealer draws the win. HE COLORS IN!!! $81,000.
Needlesstosay a host was on him like stink on $h!t...
Great story cman. What is llRC?
IIRC = if I remember correctly
Playing at the same table as JuicyJennie!
You can fly her in to AC
Playing at a high limit table, with Aceofspades, and him asking me for a loan after he taps out. And of course I have to call Evenbob to see if he will guarantee Ace's marker.
This made me laugh out loudů
IIRC = if I remember correctly
What does that mean?
PS if anyone wants to put up the cash, I volunteer for the job.